Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Missing Her...


Today was the 2nd anniversary of my Mom's passing. My sister Leslie and I decided to have a quiet dinner at her house, it was nice. It hurt not being able to go to the family home for her anniversary, but I've come to realize that memories travel, they are not confined to buildings of wood and plaster.

It's been a rough month, if something could go wrong, it has. There have been issues at work, failing brakes on my car (luckily no one was in front of me), ugly family fights, and just a general missing of my Mom. These are the times when I need my Mom, I still feel her around, often smelling her Channel No. 5, it's just not the same, but I am thankful to have anything left.

My mom was always there for me. Always. She was the one I could depend on. Sometimes that's reversed for people, but not for me. She was always there for advice, comfort, to boost my self esteem and so much more, she really came through for us, and in the end we came through for her too. I just wish she was still here to sort out all my problems and to reassure me that things will be okay - even if they are out of my hands.

I guess I know all that, she prepared us well - but sometimes I get lost on my path, she was the light.

It's 10pm now, and I am physically and emotionally drained - so I am off for a hot bath, then into bed. Hope everyone had a great day.

Blessings.
Embrace the Journey,
Bret

11 comments:

Ayre said...

I have no great words but wanted you to know I'm thinking of you. That's a lovely picture...you have her eyes...

Bohemian Single Mom said...

I think it's so great that you & Leslie got together for dinner to honour your mom.
Going "home" is a state of mind...not a place. Remember that.

(((hugs)))
Beautiful pic!

laoi gaul~williams said...

thats great and like ayre, i love that photo~two beautiful souls together...

CrystalChick said...

Lovely picture.
It's wonderful that you have such good memories of your Mom.
She'd probably want you to know that the same light she had to help you back to your path is still there, it's just inside of you now.
Hope you enjoyed your bath... ah, a good hot bubbly can do such good!

Dia said...

Hugs!! How wonderful you had such a supportive & kind mom!

The 11th was also the anniversary (17th) of my dad's passing - it just doesn't seem like it could be that long! He was a great dad, & while I *know* all is well with his spirit, I sometimes miss going *home* too!

Blessings!!

Pam said...

That is a beautiful picture Bret.My daughter is an only child, and when I see a picture such as yours on this post I feel for her, that she has missed out somehow having the kind of sister and confidante that you have.I am reminded however, that you have seen the other side of the coin too sibling-wise.We learn as we go, but some could do with a little less pain. I hope you are sleeping O.K. A warm bath helps.Big,big hug.

Jane said...

What a lovely picture. I can feel the missing and longing through your words each time you write about your mother. The connection was so deep and loving; that really comes through for me. Keep her in your heart always. I have a feeling she is always with you in all the things you do and all the places you go. Seriously, if you would like for me to make a copper and glass pendant with you and her or just her, please let me know. It would be a pleasure for me to make you that memory that you can always wear close to your heart. I wear one that has a picture of my grandfather. Not only do people comment on it every time I wear it, it also makes me smile to know how I honor him.

the old schoolhouse said...

Hello there , just found your blog while wandering through blogland and got lost in your story. I lost my dad christmas gone and can feel your pain, Any way best wishes to you, chin up. Angie.

Jane said...

Yay!!! I get to make you a gift :)) Email me at paintedhouse52@yahoo.com. I'll need you to e-mail me a photo that you love of your mom (I'm sure there are many!!). It will have to be an image of her that will fit in to a pendant approximately 1x2 inches...maybe just a TAD bit larger.

Happy Thursday!!

vlk40 said...

What a beautiful post, and photo of you and your mom. It makes me realize that I take my mom for granted, and although we don't have the relationship you and your mother had, I think it's time to make it better. Thank you.

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